Submitted to you
You rule my life
And that’s why
I hate you

But by dint of thinking
I realised
I never knew you well
And that’s why

I’ve been wasting my life
I know it now
This is not you who ruin me
If I dared follow you,

We would be together
My senses alive,
My life balanced,
Fulfilled at last

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I’m old already
And never lived fully
With you my love,
My hate

I can’t look in your eyes
I’m afraid to do so
Fear of holding you gaze
Or is my own gaze I fear indeed?

Both hate and love
Violence and sweetness
I wish I understood it before
I wish I lived, lived, lived

I know, inside of me,
That one day we’ll be together
Then, on my knees,
You would lead me